Today we really did finish the clearing out of Mum's unit. I have been feeling more emotional as the unit became emptier. It is as if we are obliterating Mum from the world. I felt this when I shifted from my home to the apartment after Peter died. Mum packed quite literally, a whole life into that place. Seeing the empty hooks on the walls, the cleared rooms, an air of abandonment comes over a place when it is emptied and before it is cleaned which made me feel sad. It is the end. I know memories last forever and people live in your heart but the tangible evidence of their existence has disappeared.
Practically speaking Mum lives on in all the pieces of China and paintings we have given to friends and family! There was a lot so their is evidence.
Tomorrow I return to Melbourne and my former life. I am excited and sad all rolled into one. Living up here for three months has allowed me to reconnect with my siblings in a richer way and develop closer bonds also with my cousin and my sister- in-law. It has given me a chance to spend time with my husband's family too. It has been a wonderful experience and I will miss the closeness. Sometimes in the past I have felt when I am in Melbourne, not only distant physically but emotionally from my siblings so this time has been very rewarding and nurturing for me too. Rex who licks my ears and sits at my feet. I will miss the doggy enthusiasm and welcomes.
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