Waiting for news

I have disengaged myself from all my commitments except work so I can race off to be with Mum when we finally get the news. Results of further tests are still to come ( this Tuesday) which seems to indicate the issue may not be as serious as we were all led to expect in the beginning. I hope I am not being Pollyanna in this.  I am selfish enough to start getting a bit annoyed at the delay. I really wanted to do the photography course and the art class is such a good discipline and a joy even if I don't get enough practice in during the week.

In my typical optimistic outlook I am seeing this freeing up as an unexpected bonus to reconsider what really matters to me and where I want to really focus my time and energy. I feel I should go up to mum anyway because the whole waiting thing has been more stressful than the actual cause I think. 

This weekend has been the first Grand Final public holiday and it has left me with a weird feeling. Friday isn't usually a public holiday except for Xmas or Easter but the impact on me is really negligible anyway as I usually don't have much on Fridays. I spent it working on 'the Lectures' and have finally got to the last information one, now to write revision and exams. I will be glad to have that pressure off, even though I have found it interesting. 

I then took in a Movie'Holding the man' with Janine followed by dinner. The movie was so powerful and intense and sad. A story about two young men from Xavier College who embarked on an intense love affair and eventually died of AIDS. It was when homosexuality was not accepted,, and so there was this sense of impending doom all the way through. Also the AIDS epidemic was rife and I realised how I have forgotten how awful that was and is. The tenderness and loss of the men affected us both so we were glad to digest it all over dinner. It was a stark contrast to 'the Intern' which I had seen the day before. That was lighthearted and yet had some salient comments to make on the modern world and relationships.

Irene has been trying to FaceTime without success and it turns out they have been having huge problems with technology. I am amused that they want to keep in touch so soon but I understand the desire to share the experience  but on the other hand I had similar problems in Spain and found it frustrating.  Being caught between two worlds is no fun. 

I had a great time at the Zoo with Ziggy this week. I feel like our days are just getting richer all the time. I love him so much. These little people just worm their way into your heart and soul and become a part of you. Leaving him for a long holiday will be more of a wrench next year than I counted on. 

 Ziggy astride water buffalo at the elephant enclosure. The zoo has a free range Lemur exhibition and when I was kneeling to tie up Ziggy's shoelace one tried to jump on my back. Just being curious. I loved it.

Having more un structured time to myself that usual is probably good for me.  I know I tend to think of Peter more and there is a longing for his company that is present. It isn't painful just a void. 

I finally did my Tax return and it actually arrived in my bank account yesterday. A week is impressive and just in time to pay for my new glasses. My everyday red ones lost the arm again and when I asked if it could be repaired (again) they said the spring was broken and it was not repairable. I had it done at another place last time and it cost me $100 and over a week without them so I elected to buy a new pair. It is a shame I couldn't keep the lenses for the new pair but... A small fortune later I have bought gorgeous red sort of cats eye shaped, incredibly light weight frame, lightweight lenses with all the preventive guff. I wear them all the time so I figure I get the value and she did give me $100 discount rather than the free sunglasses I could have got. The frames were originally $745 and the lenses were $600!! 

It seems ridiculous when you get spec savers for much less but they are much lighter to wear which is an issue for me. I do wonder if cheaper glasses would be just as good especially when people get by with chemist magnifiers. They don't work for long distance though that is my justification. The last ones cost a lot as well and I figured about $2 a day over the length of their life. They didn't last as well as the previous ones (French and very stylish even now) which I am now wearing and have had for 10 years with a lense upgrade over that time. These new ones might have to see me out!! I will post a photo when I get them.