Concerned about Mum

Mum has been travelling well despite the spread of her cancer to the liver. On the weekend she had a very sore and swollen ankle and I thought it might be a blood clot or burst blood vessel because she couldn't  recall hurting it. I was relieved to have her visit the doctor yesterday and find it was a burst vessel. Her attitude was, her veins are old and weak.  I suppose so but it is concerning. She visits the oncologist today and we will hear more of her progress. The good thing is that she is feeling well anyway. 

I saw the movie " The lady in the van" and found it rather sad, even though it is funny in parts. Alan Bennet who allowed her to stay in his driveway for 15 years, wrote the story and he seemed kind but so passive. The neighbours accepted her presence which I found really quite tolerant. I can imagine that so many other places might have called in the council to have her removed but they let her stay. She was a mysterious woman and it was confronting to see how people can fall so low when mentally unwell. It is confronting when we see any homeless people. I felt rather disturbed after seeing it. 

I have a busy week ahead with lunches, dinners and guests coming to stay. It is a bit overwhelming how busy I seem to have become again.

I finished my street scene watercolour and feel reasonably happy with the result. Always room for improvement of course but I am getting better slowly.

I am still pondering this relationship with the country boy. I like him a lot. I know he finds me attractive and desirable and generally good company, and he is starting to let down his barriers more.  I sometimes want more than I think he is prepared to give emotionally, so I am wondering if I should be patient or look elsewhere. I am such an impatient person in many ways. Just letting it evolve is hard when we are so far apart and only see each other irregularly.  

This uncertainty is such a part of new relationships until you finally make some sort of commitment I suppose.